Guest series 2012: I asked fellow bloggers, makers and creators to write on their creativity and focus their essay on one of four topics: creativity and health, creativity and business, creativity and parenting or creativity and process. I am very excited to have a wonderful lot of fellow creative folk guest posting here at whipup.net over the next couple of months. Please welcome…
Laura Bray is a designer, writer and lifestyle expert. She inspires creative women to live a life of balance & simplicity by sharing her modern twist on traditional home arts on her blog at katydiddys. Laura lives in southern California with her physicist husband and young daughter.
It’s amazing how two pink lines can change a person’s life.
When I was a young girl, I loved art. I dreamt of becoming a fashion designer. I sketched and drew. Then one day I signed up for art class at my high school. A tough semester ended in my art teacher telling me I had no talent. Young, impressionable, and embarrassed, I abandoned my dream.
I went to college, started a successful career in finance, and earned an MBA. I married a wonderful man and we were deeply involved in our careers and loved to travel. In 2001, we decided we did not want to have children and my husband had a vasectomy. It was not a decision we took lightly. We spent many hours discussing it and in the end thought it was the best decision for us. Our lives continued to move forward to our dream of retiring at 50 and traveling the world.
In October 2004, my period was late. We were afraid that I was ill or going into early menopause. When I called the doctor to make an appointment, I was told to take a pregnancy test. The two pink lines appeared, indicating I was pregnant. As I sunk to the ground in disbelief, I saw our future plans crumble before me. Over the next nine months we realized how little control we really have over our destiny and prepared to welcome our unplanned, but already loved, new family member.
In June 2005 our daughter was born. I tried to continue my business career through the first two years of her life. We had a part-time nanny but as a small business owner I struggled to make enough to pay for childcare, let alone contribute financially. I was also incredibly smitten with my daughter and hated the hours that I spent away from her. A small voice, hidden away since high school, began to whisper ideas about my creativity. I picked-up the book, The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron, and slowly began to heal the wounds my high school art teacher inflicted upon my creativity.
My daughter and my creativity have grown-up together. They feed and support one another and give me endless joy. My daughter’s unbridled belief that she can create anything she puts her mind to bolsters my confidence. She is my muse. At the same time, my creativity helps me be a better mother. Math homework is more fun when it’s turned into an art project and teaching my daughter to explore her emotions through her art are lessons that will serve her well later in life. Many of my project designs are created as toys or accessories for my daughter. As for my daughter, she’s a successful design professional at age six! She and I have had projects published in Create With Me magazine and she’s appeared on the online craft show, When Creativity Knocks.
Who would have ever guessed that those two pink lines held so much potential for two lives? They announced the beginning of my beautiful baby girl and the rebirth of my creativity.