Guest series 2012:Â I asked fellow bloggers, makers and creatorsÂ to write on their creativity and focus their essay on one of four topics: creativity and health, creativity and business, creativity and parenting or creativity and process. I am very excited to have a wonderful lot of fellow creative folk guest posting here at whipup.net over the next couple of months. Please welcome…
Sophie and her little family live in Edinburgh. At roubidou she keeps track of her creative endeavors.Â
Becoming a mother seven months ago has changed why I sew. Originally, working through the manual of my first sewing machine three years ago, sewing was meant to be a welcomed juxtaposition to the abstract and often elusive nature of my real-world work. At the end of an evening spent sewing I would hold something tangible in my hands, at the end of a project something would be finished and I could see exactly what I had accomplished; a dress, a pot holder, pajama pants. Most of all, I enjoyed the unambiguity ofÂ things created; the specificity of sewing a flat-fell seam, the intricacy of a curved piped hem, or the fragility of a button hole on thin fabric.
This has changed. 16 months ago I started nurturing another being, first inside me, now outside of my womb. Seeing this new person becoming herself, observing every little change, no matter how minute and mundane, often as a direct response of what Iâ€™m doing, is the most real and tangible thing Iâ€™ve been a part of. There is no mediacy in motherhood. With my daughter in my life, I no longer need to create things to ground me.
So why continue to sew, why create things in a world of clothes that come with every price tag and taste level imaginable? I now have a little side-kick who at any given day will probably wear something Mama-made, sewn or knitted. Itâ€™s almost like I was carrying a little advertisement board in my sling, self-promoting my efforts. Which, honestly, is sometimes a little bit embarrassing because peopleÂ doÂ notice the home-made quality regularly and the most frequent reaction leaves me indifferent. Time and again my confession ‘yes, I made this’ will be countered by an exclamation of ‘Oh, you could totally sell this’. I believe it is meant to beÂ the ultimate compliment.
Apparently, the prospect of commercial success is regarded an indicator of quality. If there are people out there who would pay for something, surely it must be good. Donâ€™t understand me wrong, I admire any entrepreneurial seamstress, painter, writer, chef, blogger, … you name it. But do just as well believe that complimenting their work by pointing out that ‘it sells’ would be equally misleading, although for slightly different reasons. Already at a conceptual level there is much to argue with this understanding of appraisal. Leaving aside questions of individual value and monetary worth, I am simply left cold by this often heard compliment because it misses the very essence of why I create.
I love to sew for myself, friends, and above all for my daughter. I came to believe that mothers must surely be their childrenâ€™s best seamstresses because nobody knows their little growing figures so well. In fact it is almost uncanny to know this small body of my daughter better than my own. Everything she wears is bound to fit her much more than anything one could buy in a store, no matter how wobbly a hem, uneven the sleeves, or messy the stitches are. Because it was made for her. Every item already comes with a history even before she wears it for the first time; the hood that fits her just right because it was widened considerably to make room for her big ginger head, her new cardigan that used to be my brotherâ€™s ragged sweater, red yarn that reminds of the speed of the machine while M. Ward kept the two of us entertained. All of these things from which I derive pleasure will be lost to anybody buying a me-made item in a shop. My joy in making something and seeing my daughter wear it is not transferable. It is different from the pleasure one can derive from a store bought, albeit well-made, beautiful and comfortable item of clothing. And thatâ€™s why (apart from all the numerous practicalities), No, I couldÂ notÂ totally sell this.
Of course I love getting a good compliment as much as most people, and luckily for me having a blog has provided a home for all sorts of exchanges over sewing techniques, tips, patterns, fabric and ‘making’ in general. Here, sometimes thousands of miles away from my sewing space in Edinburgh, I meet like-minded folks who love to create (sometimes for the same, sometimes for more varied, and sometimes for better reasons than I harbor myself). People who would doubtlessly have no difficulties selling their creations â€“ although this is not meant as a compliment, just as a matter of fact.